I began reading Thomas Merton in 2013. Enthralled and captivated with his second book, New Seeds of Contemplation:
“Many poets are not poets for the same reason that many religious men are not saints: they never succeed in being themselves… They never become the man or the artist who is called for by all the circumstances of their individual lives. …They wear out their minds and bodies in a hopeless endeavor to have somebody else’s experiences or write somebody else’s poems.”— Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation
While working as a therapist I found myself continually feeling burnt out and so far from the artist within. I quit my job to travel to the seventeen Cistercian/Trappist monasteries of the United States—first visiting Thomas Merton’s former Abbey in Kentucky. Because of my work, writing, and photography featuring silence, solitude, and contemplative life—this led to my working on the documentary feature, In Pursuit of Silence, alongside filmmaker and fellow artist, Patrick Shen.
This film, my directorial debut, is a project not only birthed from the silence but one that has emerged from the absurdity that points to clarity of Thomas Merton’s essays and meditative photographs—especially the combination of those selected and printed in Day of a Stranger. Patrick and I spent hours mulling over images, audio, and text as we began to approach the idea and then receive permission to film at the hermitage on the Gethsemani Abbey property.
This short film will expand on these notions using the nearly 150 hours of audio Merton recorded from within the hermitage walls. His journal readings, Gregorian chants, comments on weather and birds, jazz meditations, priestly notations, and more will accompany the sights and natural sounds of this mystical monastic space.
During our first production trip, Patrick and I walked the path Thomas Merton would take to the abbey, we stayed up late and awoke early, and we got into a kind of monastic rhythm of our own. We bathed in the silences of the forest as we recorded the naturally changing sounds throughout the days, tracked the sun’s movement through clouds, and chased the light and shadows upon the space Thomas Merton last declared as “home.”
In an attempt to capture the hermitage in its many forms, Patrick and I are raising funds to secure a winter trip for further filming. For more about how you can both see the film and help to to our support page.
From watching this film, it is my hope that the viewer will gain an understanding for the hermitage within—the vast interior spaciousness of our lives. It is my hope that the life of one man in the woods reminds us all of the silence and solitude that is the ground on which we find the meeting place for our true selves.